i’m trapped in a box with no intentions to survive Praying…. asking God why am I still alive I go to sleep each night knowing everything I say is a lie Knowing that is enough for me to breakdown and cry My father taught me to be tough and conquer your fears My mother taught me how to love and its ok to shed a couple tears I struggle each day to survive living my life with doubt I’m trapped in a death hole with no hopes of getting out my heart and soul is falling apart I can’t help myself no matter how hard I try I need to find a way the clock is winding down to the day I die I was raised in the mousque my mom said when you’re in trouble look for a way in the light But I’m to lost in the world and blinded by the night At this point in my life I am mentally unstable But I’m going to keep my eyes on God because I know he is able I have worn a mask all my life nobody knows or understands me They think I have it all good… look harder and you will really see I love you mom and I’m really trying to find a way But the only way you can help me is to continue to pray There where times you never listened to what I had to say That’s part of the reason I am who I am today But I’m on the right track I’m determined to find my way All because you said you loved me and it will be ok I used to live each day with no hopes for tomorrow Walking with my head down filled with shame and sorrow There where times where I felt I was on the worlds hit list So depressed my face looking like death ready to slit my wrists As a man I feel for my self I have to provide It’s enough pressure for a man to commit suicide As I engraved death in my arm I started to bleed Even though god is all I want and all that I need Stress is building up in my heart and mind Wondering when my time is up and if I’m ready to die I put the gun to my head and closed my eyes I said lord take me now I’m ready to die As I pulled the trigger no bullet came out Then I thought to myself aren’t I suppose to be dead now I opened my eyes and saw the light A voice said I love you with all my might If it was my mom I don’t know why Then they said I love you it’s not time for you to die So as I look to the sky I thank God for saving me If it weren’t for him I don’t know where I would be I know its all over my faith has been restored I have no thoughts of death…. evil can’t touch me anymore Now you know who I used to be and how I became the new me When I was trapped in a box…….. But now I’m free.... |
Monday, October 10, 2011
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